its not better. you heard, once you left, they said theyed failed you, implied theyed failed to save you. you say they tried their best. you say it wasnt their fault. i guess they did sort of fail. you are dead now, im pretty sure. im supposed to be sorry you never got a funeral, but from what i can remember of you, i dont think youd care.i can say this, though.

the only thing they failed to do was hurt you in a way that mattered.